So I heard about this thing!!

So I heard about this thing, it’s called self esteem.

I wish I had it.

Bitter sweet.

Don’t get me wrong, when people are getting better or are completely recovered. I’m happy for them, I genuinely am; but I also feel like screaming and crying and breaking down with jealousy because I know that will never be me.

I don’t see a future where I don’t rely on the back up of self harm or some form of self hate slanging match with myself, or thoughts about ending it all.

I will always be this stupid, fat, pathetic, useless mess. The only reason I’m here is because I couldn’t hurt my mum or nana the way which my suicide would.  

…

Scars out. No fucks given!

Sleeves are up, no one has even made a comment, and if they I’ll politely tell them to screw off. Why should we hide away? We shouldn’t! Be proud of who you are and how far you’ve come.

Girl Interrupted

“You hurt yourself on the outside to try and kill the thing on the inside”
-Susanna Kaysen.

It’s getting colder here in England…

I can’t because no one ever does.

We’ve all felt like this…

Well I’m here to say you’re not, because even if I don’t know you, I love you.
Plain and simple, I love you.

Chins up & stay strong! X

It actually breaks my heart knowing how many people will…

Is it just me? :s

For once in my life, someone has shown me genuine kindness and has shown no efforts to use or hurt me after a date….and I’m crying more than I ever have over someone who has hurt me and I’ve self harmed again…wtf is wrong with me? Has anyone else ever been like this?